Mini Getaway!

I don’t even know what my husband does to make this kind of magic happen, but last week, Ry and I got to have an overnight getaway at The Montage in Laguna Beach.

OMG.

It was so good, so needed, so relaxing, so restful.

This was undoubtably probably one of my most favorite trips we have ever been on together, but something about it was just so special. I was reminded how important it is as husband and wife to get away and have days for just each other.

The Montage is a super fancy hotel and WAY out of our league, but like I said, Ry has this way about him and makes magic happen. We were fortunate to be away from the kids for two days and literally soaked in every second of no plans at all. I strongly encourage all you married couples out there to make time for each other, whether it be an hour or overnight, it is truly so refreshing!

My heart is so full of love and appreciation for my sweet Ry.

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All About the Tote

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I am so excited to share with you my LOVE for Buffalo Jackson and the incredible line of not just many amazing leathers they have, but specifically their leather totes! Every woman needs a good tote, one that is beautifully designed and functionable.  I love every detail about the Camden Braided Leather Tote.  It is absolutely perfect in size for the Mom on the go or simply a night out. What I especially love about this tote is that it is not only useful for a day in the life of mothering triplets, but also perfect for going out (alone).  It is nice to have a bag that can hold all my necessary belongings and portray so much beauty.

 

What is even more spectacular about the Camden Tote is the functionality of the inner pockets!!! I love this in particular about this tote because I often find myself not knowing where my keys, sunglasses, credit card, etc. are, but the pockets make it so much easier for myself to stay organized.  Huge Mom Perk!

 

The Camden Braided Tote  can be described as a “rugged beauty.” Along with being designed well, it is a gorgeous tote! It is a tumbled full grain leather with handmade braided details. The interior is incredibly spacious and it includes a magnet for compartment closure.

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Buffalo Jackson isn’t just known for their incredible leathered goods, but they have an amazing apparel selection, accessories, bags, etc. Everything is beautiful handcrafted and designed. Check out their website! You will fall in love just like I have!

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Never a Dull Moment

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It’s Saturday morning.

6:30am

The kids have been up for awhile already, but are playing in their room (or so we thought).

Extreme laughter is taking place.

All I can think is, “it is so nice to hear them laughing so hard and playing so well together.”

I was not about to get out of bed. It’s Saturday morning after all (which by the way means nothing when you have kids).

Gut laughter continues. I mean they are really having fun.

Finally, Ryan decided we should probably check on them.

“Oh no. This is a big no no you guys.”Is all I can hear.

I get out of bed and go to their room to find no one.

Confused.

I head to the bathroom and see that our children were having their own splash party with the toilet.

They took toys, socks, bottles of shampoo, pretty much anything they could find (including their hands) and threw it in the toilet so the toilet water could splash all over them… and everywhere.

Welcome to the wonderful world of Triplets 😂💕 Never a dull moment.

Mommy Must Have

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One of the most important Mom Must Haves is a diaper bag you love!!! You are basically taking your life with you, so you need something that functions well.

The AZARIA backpack diaper bag has done that for me. I love this minimalistic side of this bag and making things simpler for mama’s. The bag I have is the La Mere in Chestnut. There are many pockets which I love because I feel like my phone, wallet, and keys all need a designated spot in bag otherwise I never know where they are. What I especially love about this bag is that it can be a backpack. With 3 toddlers running around being able to carry on my back makes things so much easier, so Ic an hold hands without a diaper bag hitting someone in the face.

The La Mere bag is made of faux leather and has a very sophisticated design. The organized storage is incredible and will help any Mom like myself who often feels like I can’t find anything!

 

Their motto and mission couldn’t be more true: Make every day rosy” 

“Our mission is to help women with kids find more joy in everyday life. We believe there is a lot of truth in the saying that goes, “If mom isn’t happy, no one is happy!” Our hope is that our products can make every day a little happier, a little simpler, a little more meaningful, a little more beautiful. A little more rosy.”

You can also follow Azaria Brand on Instagram: @azariabrand

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Happy Embryos Transfer Anniversary to Me

Three years ago today a miracle happened. I had two perfectly made embryos transferred to my womb as “It Is Well,” played so peacefully in the background with my Husband, Mom, IVF Doctor, and a few nurses present. It wasn’t exactly how I imagined we would conceive. My infertility journey: all the needles, ultrasounds, tears, negative pregnancy tests, a whole lot of money lied on this moment. Little did I know, God was about to give me more than I could even imagine. I would soon find out I was pregnant with triplets! There was life in my womb. One for each year we tried to conceive. 😍Hope anchors the soul and it anchored my journey. I knew my body was going to change dramatically, and it has. But my hope wounds mean so much to me. They represent every single part of the story the Lord has written for me. I understand self love more than I ever have before! Be proud of your bodies Mamas. And happy embryo transfer anniversary to me ❄️❄️❄️💕💕💕

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Gift a Unique Wooden Watch this Valentine’s Day!!

Dear JORD WATCHES,

Everyone needs one of you.

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Dear JORD WATCHES,
Everyone needs one of you.
For Christmas I was so excited to surprise Ry with this beautiful Dover Ebony and Rosewood watch.  JORD is an amazing brand that creates unique men’s watches as well as women’s. The watch Ryan is wearing is from the Dover series and is visually so interesting and captivating since it is a skeleton watch, meaning you can see almost all of the internal mechanisms.  It is perfect for any occasion and is absolutely gorgeous.  The beautiful contrast in colors are so catching to the eye.

Because we love you, and we love JORD, we wanted to do something special for our followers!

We partnered with JORD for an amazing giveaway for one of our lucky followers. You will have the chance to win $100 to JORD.

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As well, JORD is offering 10% as a consolation prize of 10% off. You don’t want to miss this amazing opportunity.

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Giveaway ends January 17th, 2018.

Today’s blog is in partnership with JORD

 

Have a great Day!! Love, Desiree

The Flu x3

untitled-10Ryan and I were fortunate enough to go away last weekend on our Ellen trip.  Last Christmas Ellen Degeneres had some major surprises for our family, but one major perk of our whole Ellen experience was that we got to be on her 12 Days of Giveaways and it was AMAZING. One of the gifts included was a weekend away at The Miraval in Arizona. It was the most relaxing trip ever and so needed for Ry and I.

As most parents know, when you go on a trip, you worry about everything and try to prepare for it while you’re away.  We are not away from the kids too often, especially over night, but I never imagined all three would come down with the flu while we were away…

We were greeted Sunday night with lots of smiles and puking too. Our poor little bunnies needed all kinds of extra snuggles. And I am pretty sure they loved every second of bed time snuggles on Mommy and Daddy’s new Sensor Gel Pillows from @sensorgel_

These pillows are so comfortable, plush, and thick.  We have gotten a better nights sleep from them. I think the triplets want them for themselves. The Fortin Family highly recommends them!

Our babes are finally on their way to feeling more like themselves… what a week it has been!

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Dear Anxiety

Dear  Anxiety,

I see you.

In the last two years I have gotten to know on a pretty close level. You have come in and out of my life.  We are not friends.   To be honest, I  kind of loathe you, actually. More recently, you have become a daily battle for me. You can take any moment, any situation, and use it to bring some of the greatest panic and fear I have ever experienced.  It’s been a tough season for me as a Mother.  I am trying hard to be strong, to be brave; to find my value in who I am as Mom. There are times I feel lost in raising tiny humans, but I know I am doing a good job.  I know that Motherhood is not having the right answers.  It is sometimes simply winging it and not having a clue what you are doing.

However, if I am being entirely honest, the days you sneak up on me I have a pretty hard time seeing just how good of a job I am actually doing, especially when I feel like I should have the right answers.  I should know how to handle tantrums.  I should have well behaved children.  You are a master at speaking lies to me.  You are crippling.  You instill fear. You cause me to worry about things that may never even happen.  There have been days when I can’t even take my kids to the park because I am afraid they will be kidnapped.

You are paralyzing.

I first encountered you after the triplets were born.  You used sleep deprivation to suffocate me. I had no amount of energy and could never catch up on my sleep.  The panic attacks kicked in and swallowed me whole.  At the time, it was hard for me to even recognize and admit how difficult things were for me as a new Mom.   I wasn’t enjoying the season. I waited for so long to become a Mother and you hijacked my heart with guilt and told me lies about who I was as a Mom. You stole moments I could have shared with my babies.  I felt so lonely, so misunderstood.

I hated you then like I hate you know.

Eventually, I saw what was happening to me. My husband, friends and family-they saw it too. And I got the help I needed to learn how to manage you.

And yet, here we are, two years later, and I see you trying to poor the physical, emotional, and mental exhaustion over me once again. You are using the terrible twos to make me question myself as a Mom and if I can even handle this tiring and often thankless job.  You use tantrums to suck every piece of patience right out of me. You constantly steal the grace I should have for myself as a Mother and exchange it with panic and guilt. You use Mom-shamers to steal my confidence.  You know all the tricks to make me believe untruths about who I am as a Mom.

However, the difference between two years ago and now is, now, I know how to face you a little better than I did before.  I know the importance of being vulnerable even when it is hard, even when I don’t want to. I know that I have to talk about the fact that right now, I am having a hard time enjoying this season of Motherhood; and that it is okay.  I have to cling to the people I trust most in my life; the ones who don’t judge me when my kids are throwing yogurt across the room during breakfast and enjoying a lollipop before 9am. The ones who still love me even when I lose my temper.  The ones who know I am just as mortified when my kid bites theirs.  The ones I can share my secrets with and know they are safe there.

I know when my husband says, “Go to target. Buy a new dress. I will get the kids to bed tonight,” I need to let him because he means it.  I see you and so does he.  I have been incredibly impressed by the actions he took to ensure we could walk through this season together and find solutions to help me through some pretty tough days. He made the big moves. He was willing to be there for me however I needed, to help me through this strangling season.

I know that I have to be willing to face you even when I am ashamed of the events of the day and how I responded to the whining, biting, fighting, crying, and hitting (And yes, sometimes all of that happens within minutes of each other).  Those are the days when my Mom anger kicks in, guilt takes over, and I am entirely ashamed of who I have become and how I have responded. Any kind of grace I could have had for myself is gone.  Those are the hardest days. I have learned how important grace is.  I don’t know what I am doing. I don’t have all the right answers.   I fail every day.  And that is okay.  That is grace.  I have to pray. I have to pray hard and know that God chose me to a be a Mom to my babies because He knew I could handle it.

I know when it is time to make a Doctor’s appointment and talk about medication to help.  To be honest, this step was probably the hardest for me.  It is hard to walk into the Doctor’s office and admit that you don’t have it all together.  However, I know that sometimes going on medication is just the best way to manage you.  There is no shame in that.  And this time around, I knew I needed to take those steps to get the help that I needed in order to get through my days a little better.

I am in the trenches of Motherhood trying to hold onto every bit of patience I could possibly have for my kids.  My days spent with three pretty active testing your limits two year olds are filled with all kinds of challenges. The days are getting better and you and I aren’t as close as we used to be, but it is still hard.   However, the beautiful thing is, is that God always makes beauty out of our ashes.  It is seasons like this that change you.  They allow to grow and become a stronger,  wiser version of yourself. They give you  hope and remind you just how great of a Mother you actually are. And that is what I will choose to take away from this incredibly exhausting, yet entirely empowering season of Motherhood.

Sincerely,

The I still don’t always have it together Mom

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“Did You Eat a Battery?”

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I put the triplets down for their afternoon nap today and let’s just say their “nap” was certainly not my version of a nap. I had to go in their room a couple times because of fighting. Once it finally got quiet I went in to check on them and make sure everyone was asleep.
I found all three kids quietly playing with their night lights and the batteries that went with them. I was mortified. I frantically picked them up.
“Did you eat a battery? Did you put this in your mouth?” I asked relentlessly over and over.
They are two years old. The boys told me “No, Mama” and Charlize just said “Eat a battery.” All the batteries were accounted for, but l was worried. The night before I switched out the dead batteries with new ones. What if I forgot to throw them away? What if there was a loose one? I was frantic. Terrified. Guilt struck. I felt like I couldn’t even function.
I called my husband. I don’t even know how he understood what I was saying through my cries. He immediately left work, called our Doctor, and we took our kids in for x-rays. I’ve read several stories about kids swallowing small coin batteries and the dangers of batteries in general. Although I didn’t really think they actually swallowed a AAA battery, I knew it was possible and our Doctor of course agreed that we had to be certain.
“What are they here for?”
I was embarrassed to even say it out loud. “We are here to make sure none of them swallowed a AAA battery.”
They had their x-rays. Everyone was feeling normal. We waited for our Doctor to call with the results.
Relief. I felt like I could breathe again.
No one had swallowed a AAA battery.
“How did they get the batteries,” our Doctor asked.
I could feel the shame in my voice.
We used to have night lights that plugged into outlets but the kids messed around with those so we got battery operated night lights. I usually always stick them on top of the changing table out of arms reach. They have never tried climbing the table and so to be honest I never was really concerned… until today, when I found myself in the pit of my stomach terrified that one of my kids ate a battery. The triplets used their book basket to climb onto the the table. And they pushed just the right spot on and they had their hands on the batteries too.
I was naive to think that my kids wouldn’t do this. And there are a million things running through my head of what I should and shouldn’t have done, so I don’t really need anyone to tell me.  But, I have to remember that this job, being a Mom, is challenging. You are constantly making mistakes, learning, and growing. Being responsible for other humans is hard sometimes. Even though I am embarrassed and absolutely mortified of what happened that day; I am also relieved. I am thankful. My babies are safe. They are alive. Praise God.